kinda...sad

I wanna know how your suppose to get over loving someone who 's no longer...here

Like physically...NOT here..
I know not alot of people read this,and the ones that do,wont get mad..

i know everyones had a hard time getting over Jake passing;but for me its really alot different..
Days,im okay..other days i just wanna hear his voice,him call me doll...and his hugs could make the darkest of days seem 

brighter...i know its selffish,but id give up everything for one more night.

To go back to that friday..I wouldnt of fell asleep after work,I wouldnt of ignored his messages..
something was wrong,i knew in the tone..but of course i blew it off..

But  Jake helped so much...Never thought a guy would treat me good again..

and its gone...forever...
Just one more day,is all i ask...Id tell you i did love you..and wish i woulda gave him the chance..

Now...and 9 years ago...

I love  You Jake...now & forever..

I know hes here...but its not the same.in

But  hes in a better place..and safe

<3

I really hope noone gets offended or mad..

But noone besides my mom & kev knew..

and i needed to get it out..Im sorry..