todays one of those days were i really wish i could hear your voice. your arms around me telling me that

things will be fine...To have my phone beep and it be a text from you saying "good morning doll"..
I wish we had the chance to go back and actually hangout like planned...but my last memory of you is you pulling out of burger king parking lot,heading to the redbox @ walmart...Jake i miss you more and more as each day passes you think itd get easier,and i know your up there saying,guys im okay...but down here we're not...I know quiet a few people that could use your help right now?
I need to hear you tell me i deserve better...I wish we had the chance to be more than what we were cause yes,there were feelings there on my half...and im sure yours too...You were great with Taylor,and everyday she asks about you..and her stuffed monkey "jake"...Im sure you hear her yelling at you when were outside...we just talk to you like your right there with us,makes it a little easier...Theres days i just wanna give up..because i dont believe i have the strength to do this much more...but then i swear your there pushing me thru it...You were the BEST, Noone can say otherwisse..I wish you were here to meet Rachs little one(whe he/she) make their BIG daybue(however u spell that) im glad you had the chance to meet tay...you woulda been an amazing father thats for sure...But i just wanted to let you know i miss you,day by day im getting a little stronger but then fall back like today and just wish one more day..... I miss you baby..and i love you always robot....<3 always......rest easy.